PSYCHOTIC POETRY
German Alcala
Published by German Alcala at Smashwords
Copyright 2012 German Alcala
From the Author:
SWING: A PSCHYOPATHY is a Fabulamena. A term that comes from the Latin words Fabul and Camena. It means Story and Poem. Consider it an Opera or Musical that you read as a book. The characters can sing or think poetry. These forty poems are my poems collected together for the novel. Several of them have been modified for the novel, and are also modified here to fit with the each other. I hope you enjoy these poems. There is no need to read the book to enjoy these poems. If you plan to read the novel then you should avoid reading the final poem in this collection. Thank you for opening this book, and I hope you enjoy it.
01
-- WHERE
ARE THE HOT HETEROSEXUALS?
(sung
by Darrel Waggo)
02
-- SLIDE
(sung
by Kirk Waggo)
03
-- JELLY
BEANS
(sung
by Mark & Eric)
04
-- HOMO-SAPIEN
(sung
by David & Darrel)
05
-- HOLDING
DOUBTS
(sung
by David & Students)
06
-- GRINDING
AGAINST THE WALL
(sung
by Darrel Waggo)
07
-- REALIZING
YOUR SKIN EXISTS
(sung
by Darrel Waggo)
08
-- THERE
IS NO LOVE
(sung
by David Thent)
09
-- UNWILLING
FIXATION
(sung
by David & Darrel)
10
-- DEMONIC
FAGGOTS
(sung
by School Chilren)
11
-- JELLY
BEANS (Reprise)
(sung
by Mark & Eric)
12
-- NECTARINE
(sung
by Mark & Eric)
13
-- CLEAN
CONSCIOUS
(sung
by Tom Richardson)
14
-- MADE
A VICTIM
(sung
by Tom Richardson)
15
-- HOMO-SAPIEN
(Reprise)
– (sung
by David & Darrel)
16
-- THE
LIGHT IN HIS EYES
(sung by David & Darrel)
17
-- BUNDLE
UP WITH ME
(sung
by David & Darrel)
18
-- HAVE
YOU EVER TRIED TO KILL SOMEBODY?
(sung
by Kirk Waggo)
19
-- SHOOTIN'
THE BREEZE
(sung
by Eric&Mark & David&Darrel)
20
– PEDOPHILES
(sung
by Mark & Eric)
21
-- COME
WITH ME
(sung
by David & Darrel)
01
-- ANOTHER
NUMBER
(sung
by Elizabeth & Rose)
02
-- KISS
ME, SKY
(sung
by Darrel Waggo)
03
-- I
ADMIT I ENVY YOU
(sung
by Darrel Waggo)
04
-- IT'S
HORRENDOUS
(sung by School Children)
05
-- FAGGOT
(Narrated)
06
-- YOU
WERE ASKIN’ FOR IT
(sung
by David Thent)
07
-- NO
SON OF MINE
(sung
by Kirk & Daniel Waggo)
08
-- GET
INTO IT
(sung
by Darrel Waggo)
09
-- YOUR
ARMS
(sung
by David Thent)
10
-- CALIFORNIA
BREEZE
(sung
by David & Darrel)
11
-- SLOWLY,
YOU'RE ALL MINE
(sung
by David & Darrel)
12
-- DON'T
COME YET
(sung by David & Darrel)
13
-- FIERCE
(SWING EDIT)
(sung
by David & Darrel)
14
-- THE
OTHER WOMAN
(sung
by Rose Thent)
15
-- BEST
WE FORGET
(sung by Reovice Citizens)
16
-- WHERE
ARE THE HOT HETEROSEUXALS? (Reprise)
(sung
by David & Darrel)
17
-- I'M
SO GAY
(sung
by Bart & Kore Matheson)
18
-- BECAUSE
HE LEFT
(sung
by Bart Matheson)
19
-- THE
HAND OF JUSTICE
(Narrated)
20
-- SWING
(Narrated)
PART ONE
Eric and
Mark swung on the swings every day
They loved to swing in their
school playground
There was a high school just around the way
Then
one day the boys heard a strange sound
01
WHERE
ARE THE HOT HETEROSEXUALS?
(sung
by Darrel – taken from Drag Queen)
I
have seen them running around this city
It’s the woman loving
man I find so pretty
They have cute faces and bodies of angels
too
I look at them, and I find only one thing to do
I smile so
shyly at them like a silly little boy
They look at me and there’s
a strange curiosity!
Where are the hot heterosexuals?
The
hot boys
The ones who crave women
And are my eyes’ toys
Did
they all become bi-curios?
On my watch?
Or am I what they are
trying to dodge?
Are they hiding from me?
I truly hope
so
Because if not
My eyes have nowhere to go
I have
seen them somewhere in the world there
Looking at them for too
long is only a small dare
I have seen them with their girlfriends
in love
They see me looking like they’re angels from above
They
crack a wicked smile, and say “Hi” to me
Their cute smile is
the last thing I want to see!!!
Where are the hot
heterosexuals of the planet!
One better show up before I make a
wild racket!
Where are the players of my favorite sport?
I miss
looking at some boy without his support!
Where have all the
heterosexual boys gone?
Did they all gain weight instead of
building brawn?
Have they abandoned me and the girls?
Did
they all go back to their strange worlds?
Where are the hot
heterosexuals, my god?
To where have all the nice straight boys
gone?
Where are they now?
Where are the friends and the
boys?
Where are my foolish eyes’ favorite cute toys?
02
SLIDE
(sung
by Kirk – taken from The Witch's Tits)
Watch
my feet I move them with skill
It’s impossible for me to just
stay still
Then the people around me smile
My acceptance truly
stands no trial
That is for I hold something secretly
I hold
secret all of my homosexuality
Look at the way mother clings
to her bible on Sundays
Look at my father blame Satan and Hell for
the gays
Oh how I wish I could tell them all about my
secret
However, there is a silent fear I will just have to
emit
How I wish I could slide my feet with total joy
Until then
I will merely dream about being with a boy
Why am I the one
who suffers the stupidity of others?
Why must I be the one to hurt
by ignorant brothers?
Fuck them all in their stupidity for I tire
of it all
Fuck it all with the way they make me feel so small
When
will I be happy and be allowed to slide my way?
When God is with
me and he’ll accept that I’m gay!
If I must be with God to
be accepted then let it so be!
For then I’ll be free. I won’t
suffer crap from everybody!
Here I stand alone and cold in the
night. The water runs
I’m the only person home not even with my
father’s sons
I see my father’s blade. At twelve I don’t
have my own
I place my wrist under the water… my veins are
shown
So little effort to slide the blade down my skin
So
little to finally commit such an unspeakable sin
So, here goes
nothing, and I slid the blade across
I looked at the blood spread
across my skin like moss
It grew and ran down my arm. It wrapped
around me
And suddenly I could not see, everything was blurry
My
hands slid against the bathroom walls as I fell
The blood would
leave a story I couldn’t tell
Now in my final moments I dipped
my finger in blood
And I slid my finger across the mirror all I
could
I wrote only two words which told an epic tale
The words
“I’m Gay” told my parents how they fail
Oh, what joy it
gives me as life slides away from me
To know that this is what my
elders will come see
They will see my white and bloodless body on
the floor
The blood sprayed and sliding down the shower door
The
words I could slide onto the mirror for them
Oh, soon my name will
be a young televised gem
Yes, the world will know of my
sorrows and pain
Yes, there is much from this that I will surely
gain
My name will be remembered and people will change
I will
get to see God and his face that is so strange
God will welcome me
into those loving arms
And let me know that I am free from life’s
harms
I slide out of life, and into God’s shining grace
I
slide my hands for the last time across my face
To leave behind on
my cheeks some blood
I want my last breathe to be of my own
blood
This is how I did slide out of the world of insanity
That
is why I now sit here in all of Hell’s majesty
03
JELLY
BEANS
(sung
by Eric and Mark – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
Jelly
beans all of such beautiful colors spill
I see your eyes looking
at them in a thrill
I stare at you and with joy I now fill
Jelly
beans so sweet and surprisingly small
We grab them and throw them
up so tall
Catch them in your teeth as they fall
Jelly
beans from an All Organics Store across town
All the money they
did cost me gives me a frown
You make me richer than a king with a
crown
Jelly beans start to roll across the floor
For we lay
against the bedroom door
Seeing which flavors we like more
Jelly
beans so small and sweet just like you
With you I smile. There’s
little else to do
My words of love are sweet and true
04
HOMO-SAPIEN
(sung
by David & Darrel - taken from Drag Queen)
Do
people ask you if you’re gay?
Because you walk with a slight
bounce
Your swooped black hair is never astray
And everybody
thinks you’re cute
My dearest boy,
Oh please be
homosexual for me
I have done it before
So, will you please
hold me into the night?
Because I wondered
What your thoughts…
of me were
You might a bisexual
Or you might be
bi-curios
Or perhaps it’s only…
That you’re so modern
You
are not conforming
To what anybody cool says
I wish you
would hold my hand
And blush as you sit closer to me
I look
into your eyes and see warmth
Tell me, bright eyed boy, which you
are
I want and die
To look at your pornography stash
I think
and fear
You might be only Homo-Sapien
A homo?
A
Sapien
A homo
A sapien!
Homo-Sapien
HE’S
NOT!
Homo-sapiens
act differently
He is homosexual, I know it
He is for me…
Such
a cutie will already be taken
Or not interested in a queen
bitch
You are sweet, but so quiet
Is it because you’re a
homo?
I would die if you said no
Or is it a Homo-Sapien?
I
would soon die if you said yes
I must be terribly wrong
Your
manners are so
Well-Meaning
My homo-sapien boy
Sometimes you
speak
With a slight squeak
Never bearing bracelets
You
are not so modern
You’re a homo, yeah?
A classic case
Be
Homosexual
Would you tell me if I confessed
That I
wondered
What you think… of me?
I think
You are only a
Homo-Sapien
I thought
Of asking you up front
I fear
that…
You would say “Homo-Sapien”
You know exactly
who Cher is
Is it because you are Homosexual?
Or are you merely
Homo-Sapien?
05
HOLDING DOUBTS
(sung
by David & School Children - taken from The Notorious G.A.G.A)
Two
decision, two roads I could take.
I think that I might want to die
now
I don’t know which choice to make
I don’t know what to
believe in or how
And I know that you are there too
I can tell
in your eyes that doubt exists
You look at me with an expression
so blue
Why not end this all and simply be in bliss
Holding
doubt you are kept from me
What keeps us from being
together?
Strong doubts keep us in mental calamity
I want all
of your love and our flutter
But there is nothing but confusion
I
don’t know if you’re gay or straight
And the doubt leaves us
no option
I don’t know if you like me or not
Why don’t
you even try to say something?
Anything that might reassure me of
this
Am I seeing the truth behind everything?
Or am I seeing
shadows in your eyes?
Why won’t you tell me up front, and save
me?
Why won’t you set us free from doubt?
Save us both from
these doubts so haunting?
If I want you and me to hook up and go
out
Holding onto doubts is what keeps us short
What keeps
cities from forming and love appearing
In this doubt I hold no
smart retort
Is your mind like mine, hurting and pleading?
Begging
desperately for a straight up answer
Holding doubts of anything is
disastrous
It’s a poison, and I think I’ll lose my mind soon
I
hold nothing true out of fear and doubt
So what keeps
marriages from completing?
Or business from continuing farther
off
Am I seeing shadows or am I on to something?
In this world
what makes me scoff?
In this world what keeps you from me?
It’s
doubt, it’s holding onto all the questions
What keeps me awake
at night, and lonely?
And in it all you lose all your good
options
It is doubt, so why don’t you want to save me?
06
GRINDING
AGAINST THE WALL
(sung
by Darrel - taken from The Predator's Tits)
Sorrow
has come too close to a once peaceful home
I think I might as well
live in an airless dome
Because it’s very obvious that no one
can hear me
Nobody‘s hand is coming the dark well
I’ll
write of how I feel, not how I ever fell
I feel like my power
has been brought to an end
I cannot push further, because my limit
is met
There’s a wall here that I just can’t pass
Unless I
become a ghost I’ll never pass
Now I realize that my limit is in
sight
I realize that all my fears are now in flight
The
pressure against me is too much to bear
I’m grinding against the
wall and I’ll soon tear
I’m grinding against the wall as I
fall to the floor
There is nothing left for me to aspire to or to
adore
Now I only want to die, I have nobody and nothing
There
is a darkness that I have stopped resisting
I am grinding my
face against the wall and blood appears
Wanting to see somebody to
return to me I only see tears
There’s only this dark energy and
nothing different
I know my angels have shaken their heads and
left
All my friends have said goodbye or shooed me away
Now I
just want this to be my last living day
Grinding against the
wall I’ve never been so low
I need to get past this wall for
there’s nowhere to go
Grinding against the wall I know only of
sadness
Everybody has left and now I realize loneliness
I
realize that if I cross the wall I will find a new wall
And soon
enough I’ll find another thing to make me fall
Grinding
against the wall I bleed and shake
Hoping for this pain to take a
break
But it doesn’t care and I’ll be dead soon
Soon
somebody will toss the harpoon
Hopefully I’ll die soon and see
the light
There’s nothing here but fright
07
REALIZING
YOUR SKIN EXISTS
(sung
by Darrel – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
Such
a foolish boy I’ve come to love
For your existence I do thank
God above
Then one day you let me know something
You let me
know that you were “growing”
Realizing that your skin
exists is insane
I thought that my love had no restrain
Now I
realize that you are a human of strength
And now I’m interested
to know “its” length…
Realizing your skin exists is a
trip to hell
Because you’re not an angel I can now tell
I’ve
realized that your skin so supple is there
Now I crave to one day
see that skin bare
Realizing your skin exists now I want to
touch it
It is so supple and smooth. I feel like I don’t
befit
So rosy and sweet is how I feel your precious lips
I love
how sleek and fresh your dirty blonde hair is
Realizing your
skin exists I want to hold it against mine
I’ll truly treat it
with respect. For abuse it is too fine
I’ll kiss it as gently as
one kisses the hands of a noble
My hunger for your skin is
something I had to make vocal
08
THERE
IS NO LOVE
(sung
by David – taken from Drag Queen)
There
is no love, not anymore
I have lost love, but not anymore
There
is no passion, not here
There is no passion to find here
There
is no happiness around
There is only sadness around
There is no
love left in me now
There is no life left in me now
There
is no need for love in this vast place
No love can enter this
sadly ruined place
Walk away from me for I have no need for
it
Take your love somewhere else and use it
There’s
nothing to be found in this heart of mine
There is only a rock of
coal in this heart of mine
Don’t waste your time here, there is
nothing here
Don’t approach me with open arms, my naïve
dear
There is no love left in me
There is no joy left in
me
Don’t look for happiness
A myth is now happiness
There
is no clear water left
There is no admiration left
There is no
need for love
There is no wanting of love
I want to be
where people forget of love
I want to be where innocents can never
die
There is no need for love in this cold world
There is no
need for happiness in this world
I grow weary of this world of
hypocrisy
I grow weary of needing warmth or love
It is science
that as humans we need love
But see I’ve learned, I have no need
for love
Destroy away a world in which I can pray
Every
night I used to pray with my eyes closed
And every person for whom
I prayed
Turned their backs sooner or later
I’m glad I never
prayed for them to stay
I thought that saying they loved me
assured that
If I lose my mind forgive me for everything
If
I die young forgive God and erase me from everything
You see I’ve
lost my hope in humanity
There is no love left in all of
humanity
You see I have come to understand
That love is not
needed to understand
I have found that there is nothing
I have
understood that I am nothing
I am not a person, not anymore
I
am nothing; that is what I am
I am not in need of love, not me
In
my black heart there is no love
09
UNWILLING
FIXATION
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
My
heart calls out to my weak brain
Telling me to love you some
more
My brain tries its best to ignore
Before I know, my eyes
glaze
I’m thinking only of you
Fighting every instinct
No
matter what I say
I just think of you
Unwillingly
I’m
in an unwilling fixation of you
For my heart doesn’t even
know
That it has to stop this longing
Unwilling fixation feels
great
I wish I had more time to
Just sit with some tea
Sit
by the windows
And think of you
What bliss
10
DEMONIC
FAGGOTS
(sung
by School Kids – Original for Swing)
Those
two boys…
What they doing hugging
And holding hands?
I
have a terrible theory:
They are faggots, or queers.
Little
boys who are handsome
Butt pirates.
Kids stand up to
them!
Demonic faggots in our school.
What disgusting men these
are!
You should both know
That we are going to burn
you!
Disgusting faggots!
Kids take out your pitchforks
We
think that you are faggots!
We'll beat the shit out of you!
Kill
the faggots! It's a must!
Faggots!!!
11
JELLY
BEANS (Reprise)
(sung
by Mark & Eric – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
"Delicious"
He
dropped a jelly bean into my mouth.
“Really?” he asked,
peering at his Jelly Beans
Jelly beans all of such beautiful
colors spill…
Just as delicious as you
Jelly beans so sweet
and surprisingly small
Jelly beans so small and sweet just like
you!
12
NECTARINE
(sung
by Mark & Eric – from a still unpublished collection
G.E.R.M.A.N)
Saccharine
flaxen fur
I need a stimulating swill to indulge in
Using
tongues on you. Thrill me with a reply.
Talk once addressed,
my exquisite heart
Speak not of demise and famine, my life
Don’t
instigate an argument on the above
Thousands of alluring lyrics
lacking worth
Silver throat and gilded tongue
For which my
heart was freed and sold
'Fore my organs of burned silk and
ash
Dissolve to nonentity and I’m grass
Speak now afore my
throat swells
Simply for you my prose persists at all
Tis
carved for you my rosy sweetheart
Unloved these days of late. I’ll
apologize.
13
CLEAN
CONSCIOUS
(sung
by Tom Richardson – taken from The Predator's Tits)
How
could you do this me?
I already know about how much you hate me
So
you should just walk away
I know you want to, so just leave me
here
Don’t pretend to be sorry, because you suck as an actor
I’m
sick and tired of you, so just walk away
Leave me here and walk,
but when you come back
I will no longer be here, and I won’t be
waiting for you
Because I know that you leave with a smile
I
know that you hate my guts and I don’t know why
But you can
leave with a clean conscious no matter what
Like a prodigal son I
know you’ll come back and I don’t care
I know you want to come
back, but for now you smile
You walk away and leave I won’t be
here waiting
You leave with a clean conscious after everything
you’ve done
All of this pain, heartbreak, and hatred effects
only me
After everything you’ve done to me
After everything
you’ve taken
Leave me here, and don’t worry
Walk away with
a clean conscious. Forget all the tears I weep
I know you’ll
sleep like baby, and I’ll toss and turn
But don’t worry, I’ll
live.
I won’t die from the stab now upon my back
A clean
conscious…
Leave me and don’t come back, I don’t care
anymore
You leave think that I’ll be here waiting for you
But
that’s wrong
I won’t be waiting for you
I respect myself
much more than that
Walk away with a clean conscious; I know
you’ll be fine
I won’t find somebody else to heal me of my
pain
I respect myself more than that
I’ll make it alone
I’ll
fight my way through the jungles of this world
And I won’t rot
by the door waiting for you
There’s nothing left for me in you,
I will live on
While one day you will die and forever be gone
I
will go down in history with only thing
The memory of you
So
leave me with clean conscious, hit me and forget it
I know that
one day I will sit on the shoulders of Gods
And you will rot…
you won’t live long… I’m tired
You know how much I love you,
but that’s enough
As far as you care I might as well never see
you again
And as far as I care you can go on to become king of
Heaven
I won’t be dragged behind you anymore
I respect myself
too much
I’m done with all the games; I’m fed up with the
pain
So leave with a clean conscious as the pain eats at me
But
before you know it I’ll have moved on and you’ll be back
But
my address will have changed
And you’ll have no worry and can
have a clean conscious
So leave me here, and make sure you forget
this place
14
MADE
A VICTIM
(sung
by Tom Richardson – taken from The Predator's Tits)
No,
I won’t be the idiot to follow you
And I will not walk over the
edge of sanity
And if it means that I’ll be left here so blue
I
really won’t take it so hard. I’ll live in vanity
In the end
we won’t miss each other
In the end we only hurt each
other
Leave me and don’t leave me uncrushed
Couldn’t
prove myself a superhero, I won’t die
And when I take my last
glance at you
I realize that I have no reason to cry
No, your
idiot has finally died
You lead him into the abyss
We’ll be
strangers and I’ll find
In my solace some peace
If we’re
done. I won’t be the victim
Cut at the bonds that tie us, but I
won’t cry
I won’t play the clown anymore for you
You had me
once, you lost your chance
I won’t be made the victim of this
anymore
No, I won’t be the victim or the idiot, not
anymore
I’ll lay on a floor, cry for you, but won’t be your
whore
Now I see that you are what I thought you were
I can see
past the mask that you have carved yourself
I won’t die and I
won’t place my heart on the dusty shelf
The bonds between us
no longer exist
No, I won’t be made the victim in this
You
threw my love into the abyss
And now I can find my own bliss
Oh,
where is your love, the force of awe
I know where it is now, it’s
gone
It’s down a well without a rope
I won’t be the
victim here and you will not be the victor
This is over in all the
meaning of the word
We’ll be strangers, not friends, not
enemies, nothing
No, I won’t be an idiot, not for you or anybody
else
I’ve learned. This is done
15
HOMO-SAPIEN
(Reprise)
(sung by David & Darrel – taken from Drag Queen)
You
might be bisexual
Or you might be bi-curios
Or perhaps it’s
only that
You’re so modern.
I think and might cry now
If it is that you are only Homo-Sapien!
I wish you would hold
my hand
Blush as you sit closer to me!
I look into your eyes
and see warmth.
Tell me, bright eyed boy, what you are!
You
have one of those auras.
A beautiful smile just so nice
You
have a certain prowess
It simply melts my heart of ice.
Would
you tell me if I confessed?
That I wondered what you think of me?
I think you are only a Homo-Sapien.
Please tell me something
to cure
My dying passion for you
Tell me something that can
give me hope!
16
THE
LIGHT IN HIS EYES
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from The Predator's Tits)
Docile
and intelligent.
Ride through the heavens
Settle when you
reach the stars
They shine as brightly as you
There
was once a boy I knew a bit
Bearing intelligence greater than
mine
Inside him the strength of a king
Born so pure like
everyone else
Lived with a cloud so dark over his head
Yet
his eyes shone beyond the dark like stars
He died one day with
tears in his bright eyes
Yet his soul knew well that it would
ascend
Far from home, all he wanted was to return
Far from
love, he had his weakest moment
Far from the strength I admired
for, he was
Far from life, he took the rope and goodbye
The
light in his eyes was quite brilliant
How I wondered at its
beautiful glow
How it haunted me some days until I shook
myself
The light in his eyes so brilliant and smart
He was
much like me in some ways
Blinded eyes by love and thoughts
A
Virgo as pure as the cleanest Earth
With a restraint for me as I
had for him
How regrettable I did not allow myself
How
regrettable that he detained himself
How regrettable he left
doubts in his midst
How regrettable that he chose to leave
Skin
smooth and tongue adorable
A picture of youth so admirable
How
I cry to know he was buried
For he is still desperately needed
The light in his eyes will shine his way
Through the fogs
in the skies he’ll go
The light in his eyes will shine on
God
Through eyes that have no longer need cry
For he has no
more pain or memory of it
For now he has no reason to carry
grief
Sorrow, love, and pain are myths to him
The light in his
eyes is now as pure as ever
The light in his eyes will dance
across the moon
As it rises and falls over the poor mortals
That
must live while he laughs in joy of peace
Waiting for the day they
sit with him in the sky
For now he waits in his peace with
only one toy
The lights in his eyes that dance across
surfaces
Angels dance to the glide of his laughing lights
It’s
his soul filled with happiness that lights him
In his midst he
left behind doubt and cries
Still I believe with all my heart that
he knows
That those doubts couldn’t matter more
For he is in
another world where all is clear
Questions, accusations, lies,
and tears
He holds nothing with them now
They can no longer
feed off of him
For his eyes shine the darkness away
Resting
in heaven or up above.
You never believed in God yourself.
I
still know that you have peace.
I believe that you live on in
joy.
17
BUNDLE
UP WITH ME
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
Oh,
the winter is on its way with might
And many things strike you
with fright
I don’t want you to be cold, dear
For your
sadness is my only fear
So, bundle up with me among my
blankets
When the cold is gone I’ll go buy you some
trinkets
Come bundle up with me fall into quite rest
Sleep
with sweet dreams as you breathe into my chest
Let me bundle my
arms around you into the night
Now I can protect you from the
darkness’ fright
Bundle up with me and watch as sleep
arrives
Bundle up with me and close those precious blue eyes
18
HAVE
YOU EVER TRIED TO KILL SOMEBODY?
(sung
by Kirk – taken from Feed Me Your Children)
Have
you ever tried to kill somebody?
I have.
Have you ever heard
your heart quicken?
I have.
Have you ever had somebody tell
you
“Now it seems I hope you had rather died”
The love that
wraps you is sweet and true
How nice to know that you bring no
pride
Have you ever tried to kill somebody?
I have.
Was
that somebody there ever yourself?
I was.
Did you ever
swallow a bottle of pills
Hoping that you would encourage
mother?
Well, after she said I should have been still
I knew
that I wanted to commit a murder
Have you ever had death come
to thrill you
With “I should have you aborted you”?
Oh, how
the feeling makes you want to live
Because there is so much you
didn’t give
Have you ever tried to kill somebody close?
I
have.
Have you ever tried to murder an innocent soul?
I
have.
Have you ever taken too many strange pills?
Have you
ever drunk in hopes of death?
Well, the hopes of killing
somebody
And the need to commit a murder
Felt by more than just
me
Was felt all for myself
19
SHOOTIN'
THE BREEZE
(sung
by Eric&Mark & Darrel&David – taken from Fourwell Tour)
Oh,
a baby’s laughter
Don’t you wanna poke it?
Oh, with kisses
you could smother
But think of its distress
A baby born
into this Earth
Is so innocent and pure
But is tainted right
at birth
By a grown man so sure
Little children are all
convinced
That they will never fade
Young children are
bliss”
Thinking they will never fall to shade
“Because
we won’t”
You won’t?
“Of
course we won’t”
Y’all won’t?
No, for there is life
to expect
Once we grow up and ugly
We’ll have to worry for
rent
But now we don’t live monthly
So, calm your
nerves
And grab a lollipop
Forget learning verbs
For now
we’re on top
We’re shootin’ the breeze
And having our
fun
Just shoot the breeze
(Adult’s jealousy runs)
We’re
children now
With only some chores
One day we’ll plow
Or
be building doors!
So, just shoot the breeze
And enjoy
childhood
Just shoot the breeze
And don’t bother to be good
20
PEDOPHILES
(sung by Eric & Mark – taken from The Demon’s Tits)
Oh
little children, us all up in the new park
It’s jumping with all
the sand boxes up in here
I can feel their eyes peeling at my body
so young
I can smell lust when it was in the air and it hung
I’ll
hit the Swing Set, and escape a feeling so vile
Excuse me, can I
have a little old push… and a pedophile?
Is some
There
are some
I see some
I feel some
Pedophiles up in
here
Welcome to a child’s fear
Make a move. What you gonna
do, braw?
I ain’t got no time for slow seduction, Grandpa
It’s
some pedophiles up in here
Let me a little thing clear
Make a
move, but don’t break a hip though
I ain’t got no time, so
just grab at me and go
It doesn’t take work to do it
I’ll
give a dog his dentures
And I can see you
Staring at my
GooGoo
I see the way you want it
Hey, I know you want it
bad
You remember how good it tasted
When you were as young as
me
So take a bite, and you better do it fast
Hurry up ‘cause
I’m aging pretty bad
Do you wanna jitterbug?
That don’t
make you old!
Do you miss your teen days?
That don’t make you
old!
It just means you’re ripe, ready for the picking
Now
I want to have some juicy fruit from you
Hurry on up, I’m here
hungry for you. Stripping.
I want ya, Grandpa, touch me real slow
and true
Everybody from 20 to 80 is welcome to touch
Touch me
here, and make me scream and cry
Slowly, big boy, slowly; it’s
too nice a job to rush
Don’t stop pounding no matter how hard I
pry
Did you fight in Vietnam?
That don’t make you old
Do
you remember Hitler?
That don’t make you old
So, the
oldies are waning all away
Perhaps you should just forget how to
play
But it won’t be the last time you hear a child say:
“We’re
gonna call our parents if you don’t go away”
Do you wanna
be me?
That don’t make you old!
Or do you remember Reagan?
That don’t make you old!
Alright, Mr. Porter here’s
something else for you
As the children run away in fright of the
nasty
What’s the P?
I’m asking what’s The
P?
Pedophilia
Perverse
Father Porter
Penis… old saggy
penis
But that don’t mean no nothing
So, let’s go old man
21
COME
WITH ME
(sung by David & Darrel – taken from The Demon’s
Tits)
Come
with me. Die with me. Rot with me
I trust that we will never
regret this choice
Suicide with me. Leave with me. Die with
me
This world of ours will never miss your voice
You’ve said
before that my problems are yours
Well, I have problems, and my
life now bores
We must go together and die in each other’s
arms
I know that if you think about it you will agree
That we
can both happily run away from harms
This is a world in which we
no longer want to be
You know that you would die anyway if I go
away
So, let’s go together and escape this prison show
Run
away with me to Heaven to stay forever young
Two lovers going away
together, you’ll be known
We will not be found once our necks
have been rung
If we both run away nobody’s world will be
blown
No tears will fall to hear of our deaths, so let’s run
I
promise that together in Heaven we will have fun
Come with me.
Die with me. Break away with me.
The only way to save ourselves
would be to suicide
Vanish with me. Go away with me. Die with
me.
Together, in Heaven, we will both happily reside
If we go
far away together I will no longer doubt you
If I go I know that
you will be left so lonely and blue
Come with me to see from the
clouds how the world falls
Fly with me. Let us not be held back by
physical walls
PART TWO
Never
again did Mark or Eric swing with the wind
Never will anybody know
the insanity of David and Darrel
Nobody ever knew why it was that
they so horribly sinned
It did not take long for them to have fear
of peril…
01
ANOTHER
NUMBER
(sung
by Elizabeth & Rose – taken from The Notorious G.A.G.A)
One
star in over two hundred billion
One planet in nine
One human
in over six billion
One patriot in over three hundred million
One
man in over two billion
One boy in over nine hundred
million
Numbers are our greatest fear
What to think when we
hear
You are only one in six billion
A speak of dust in the
universe
You are only another number
We want to die
We
wouldn’t be missed
The death of a little boy or girl
Is
something that could shake the world
But kill a million people
And
it sucks for them…
You’re nothing but a speck of
dust
There will be a day that you are forgotten
One day your
grave will be a relic
And there’s nothing to stop it
Build
yourself a wonder of the world?
So that it may be kept only for
tourists?
Maybe an enormous mausoleum?
Don’t forget time
washes away all things
You’re only another number
No
matter which way you look at it
There’s nothing more than
that
You’re one number in a vast pool
Of the dying, the rich,
and the poor
It couldn’t matter less
You’ll be
forgotten
You’re legacy will end
And when it does… you
won’t matter
But does it really matter in the end?
Will you
care in death? No
Do you care right now? Yes
And that is death.
Not a fear of not living
A fear of vanishing
But why should
I care?
When I barely care about people now
Why should I be
bothered by people to come?
May my name be washed away
May my
image be forgotten
May my body turn to dust
In life I know I
did all I could
To be a shining gem
I know I did all I could
To
post-pone my vanishing
02
KISS
ME, SKY
(sung
by Darrel – taken from The Beautiful G.A.G.A)
This
day
I was depressed
But sadness is just a plague
Why bother
with sadness?
I am happy to be glad
So glad I think I can
fly
There are no limits now
Kiss me, sky
I want to reach
the clouds
And jump off of them
And touch the sun
Please
kiss me, sky
Make love to me
I’m in love with the sky
I
won’t cry today for the rest of the day
Monsters and bitches of
horrible manners
Who don’t respect me or want me
They’re
not what I am concerned with tonight
Heaven forgive me for
this
Oh, body please don’t punish me in the morning
But I
needed to escape the ground below
I needed the relief
And now
I’m flying
I am in love with the feeling of
weightlessness
And I am obsessed with the power in the warmth
The
sun wraps itself around me
And the sky kisses me
Oh kiss me,
sky
The sun wraps around my weak being
And the sky is kissing
me
It feels like I could be a king
A crown might as well be on
my head
Oh, sky, kiss me deeper
The liquid rushing through
my throat
The warmth deep in my bones
The sizzling inside my
head
It’s all worth it just for this affair
Kiss me, Sky,
kiss me so deeply
Burn my mind and warm my bones
Fill my heart
with fire
And blind me after a thousand shots
My loving
sky, how I love you
Kiss me deeply
Let me
forget
Everything
Kiss me, Sky, I want your lips
Kiss me,
Sky, I want your tongue
Kiss me, Sky, just kiss me now
I’ll
shut my mouth
Kiss me, Sky
03
I
ADMIT I ENVY YOU
(sung
by Darrel – taken from The Predator's Tits)
I’ve
always been the one to see the bright side of life
I’ve never
been the type to cry and say I’m done
I’ve never felt the
sting of my own hopeless knife
And you committed that act. You
fought yourself and won
I realize how I wish I could die and
know peace
How I feel so lonely without you and now I envy you
You
left the world so easily and I envy your peace
I admit that I envy
you I won’t be missed if I copy you
There’s nothing here
only dark circles around me
And a heart that continues to slowly
die. I worry
I worry that everything I’ve ever said was a lie
I
lied about the hopes in life for people in a hurry
All those
people that could not wait to kill themselves
I told them to stop.
To think slowly I was wrong
I can only stand straight if I hold
onto bookshelves
I realize that to continue living I am not that
strong
I admit I envy you, I know I’m a coward, I want to be
gone
I know you left behind pain, but now all you know is rest
So
if it means leaving behind a few sad folk, they’ll move on
And
then I’ll rest and it will be as if I never did exist
I miss
you so much, but I can’t continue in this mess
I admit I envy
you more than I could miss you
Because I know that now you only
know happiness
That your warmth might once more be true
If
I leave … I will know peace… I will know serenity
I will know
all of God, and if he is not there
I do not care for I know that
peace is in eternity
If I leave then my name will soon be lost to
air
04
IT'S
HORRENDOUS
(sung
by School Kids – taken from The Demon's Tits)
Call
for justice upon the piece of shit
Find him and may your bullets
hit
Sharpen your pitchforks and steak out the faggot
If you
should find him you must kill him like a maggot!
What he has done
is heart-wrenching
What he has done is sickening
It’s
Horrendous; it’s Deplorable, and Vile
He’s disturbed and
deserves no fair trail
It’s Atrocious, it’s Criminal, and it’s
Sick
Don’t love him. Don’t fall into his trick
Should
he look into your eyes he’ll know your heart
He’ll speak to
you lovingly and then tear you apart
An alien creature and a
monster inside a boy
He’ll befriend you and turn you into a
little toy
He’s a sin against nature. A creature so
disgusting
It’s horrendous; it’s a display that is so
sickening
He must be burned at the stake and buried faraway
It’s
horrendous; it’s a monstrous thing to display
Look in a
mirror, and realize that you are also human
There is too much
power in you that you’re assuming
Realize that you are only
rambling and people think alone
There is nothing you can say to
deter me from taking a throne
There is nothing to you can do to
save my soul from Hell
Bitch, you know that nobody will begin
mourning
What is there to say about my powerful hatred?
Or
about my innocence that I have never held sacred
What is there to
say about the brilliance of life?
Or about me holding up my gun
and a bloody knife
05
FAGGOT
(Narrated
– taken from The Notorious G.A.G.A)
The
smell of hormones could be cut with a knife
However, it’s a
smell he realized was part of life
So, despite the slight disgust
and fatigue it gave
He continued his business in this horrid
cave
Then from the noise of the locker-room they came
Bullies,
Bandits, Scum. To him they were all the same
He was warned in a
split second by a punch to the jaw
He saw all four come into his
view as he began his fall
Into unruly dismay he was suddenly
thrown
With a thousand and one kicks he was blown
Nothing new
in his short life. He knew pain well
Pain was an old friend. He
greeted a new story to tell
When his skin was raw and tears barely
kept at bay
There was a command that the biggest decided to
order
Now there was a silence and excitement from them
Then all
four were on their knees torturing the femme
The hot oil came
first as they smeared it on his face
It stung his eyes and skin
like the whip from a mace
He struggled to cover his face as they
smeared it on
However, his peach skin complexion would be gone
His
hands on his burned face and his vision blurred
The four heaved
his small body then he was turned
As three continued kicking at
his smooth supple skin
A fourth took keys to his neck “FAGGOT”
he carved in
06
YOU
WERE ASKIN’ FOR IT
(sung
by David – taken from Everybody's Gay!)
"Strike
them! Blaze their abodes into the dirt!"
Pardon, did you know
their names?
(We did it. It's done.)
"I hope each one
dies of slow acting AIDS!"
This is real yet you seem absorbed
by words
(No, you're wrong.)
"Blame the
television!"
Blame wool clothed wolves
(We're the
Shit)
They all possess souls
Sons, Bothers, and
Fathers
Daughters and Mothers
Of the same pathetic planet
"You
demented freak!"
Our reflecting eyes
(We're
beautiful)
"I'd prefer dead young to young like ye!"
Ye
birthed youth who rather die with thou
(Mine young)
"Rape
da fag's ass. I ain't gay; he were askin fo it."
This is
where I shoot ya dead! BOOM! Bu-Bye-Uh
(Rest in Peace, Maggot
Fucker)
07
NO
SON OF MINE
(sung
by Kirk & Daniel– taken from The Vampire's Tits)
I
took the covers and I plunged the knife in deep
He grunted and I
began to gut my son in his sleep
His blood was shining red it was
dark like his soul
I know that to save his soul he had to pay a
toll
He thrashed in his bed still alive as I did the act
His
screams were the only way he knew to react
My wife would
discover his bed empty in while
She would have to keep my secret
to avoid trail
The world will never know that he had to die
“He
ran away from us” I would have to soon lie
I do this now because
I loved my only son
I do this now because in his sleep he can’t
run
Blame the internet for his death and my shame
A picture
on his profile is the one that has blame
He and another boy his
age in a deep embrace
If he is allowed life he will be my only
disgrace
I killed the boy the other day at the school
I knocked
him out and threw him into a pool
All I was doing was
protecting my child and name
All I was doing was shielding my
family from shame
For no son of mine will be what I wanted to
be
How I wish my father had noticed it to kill me
Now I live
with this burning secret in my life
However, my son will know the
mercy of my knife
08
GET
INTO IT
(sung
by Darrel – taken from And On The Eighth Day)
The
boy who likes other boys will be looked at
Want me, look at me,
and holler with jealousy
The concert was nice until a gospel
rapper came
I became a monster out of the depths of hell
However,
despite being seen as evil I looked up
Said “Get into it, love
the game, and players”
Get into it already. Get into the power
of life
Don’t be the gospel rapper who thinks he is high
Get
into it; fall in love with the night and day
I’m not a devil,
not evil, and I’m not an Emo.
I only happen to be beautiful, so,
get it into it!
09
YOUR
ARMS
(sung
by David – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
So
many men and women have dreamt of it
While other’s waste their
lives for such a thing
I wonder what I did to so comfortably
sit
Sit in my idea of Heaven while you lovingly sing
Your
arms are my reason for living and my bliss
Where I’m rewarded
for nothing by your scent
In your arms I have your weak biceps to
kiss
We talk of things in life until the sun’s fire is
spent
This is where I could spend a million moons
Your arms
feel like they could hold me eternally
This is where I can rush to
lick my wounds
Even though I doubt I’m here deservingly
The
book of Romans and the Book of Mormon
Spoke of Heaven in their
many self-adoring pages
But I’m in Heaven in the arms of my
man
In your arms I could lay and sleep for a million ages
Come
rest your chin upon my jet black hair
Wrap your protecting arms
around me chest
Let me rest myself on you and breathe your air
In
your sweet arms I wish to stay forever pressed
10
CALIFORNIA
BREEZE
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from The Notorious G.A.G.A)
Love
New York
Love any small town
Love everything about America
Love
everything about the world
Hand in hand. Run with me
We
won’t be seen ever again
My love, let’s run away to
victory
We’ll be known far as insane
Before the police
can catch us
Before the guilt can set in our minds
Before we
think twice about these choices
Let’s run away and live our days
in tides
California breeze, my love, we’ll run away
Far
away from this place to the lights
To the place where we will live
out our days
California breeze will give your skin might
Hand
in hand. Follow me there
To the city of weed and love
The
gentle breeze in the sunny air
It’s like dying and going up
above
Don’t hesitate to change your name
We’ll be
drinking luxurious drinks
Just wait until we stand with the
fame
Hollywood will have a place for us
California breeze
will lift us up so high
Together we’ll run so far away from the
law
The California breeze will be right
The waters so warm will
leave us in awe
Come with me, my love, don’t give
up
Everything doesn’t have to end here
We’re outlaws, but
not in another state
California holds what we want
We’ll be a
million miles from here
Far away from the law, from
justice
Together we’ll run in the sandy beach
Together we’ll
see the celebrities dine
We’ll be among the beautiful
people
California breeze calls out to you and I
Don’t
hesitate, pack your things, and fly
With me let’s fly together
in the breeze
Let’s run away and laugh in the California Breeze
11
SLOWLY,
YOU'RE ALL MINE
(sung
by David & Darrel - XXX (Ticket to Hell))
This
is not the time, nor the place
We both know why we’re here
But
we also know why we’re close
Your soft breathe is on the air
The
time is gone for sweet innuendos
It’s time to set you free from
dreams
I want our bodies to make a crescendo
I want to hear
your soft loving screams
Slowly peel off every piece of
clothes
Slowly explore me with your hands
Let’s not bother to
keep any compose
We need to obey our bodies’ commands
Don’t
rush any of it, I’m all yours
I won’t be gone in any soon
time
You can take your time and explore
I’ll touch you
slowly, you’re all mine
Throw your head back and moan
softly
Succumb to my hands, and I’ll love you
The road to
this place was long and costly
I promise I won’t ever let you go
sad and blue
Don’t bother to keep your mouth closed
You can
touch all you want, I want it truly
I’m all yours, nothing on me
is undisclosed
Take me and slowly do what you want serenely
I’ve
come to realize just what we need
There is a hungry monster inside
of you
All I want to do now is give it its feed
I want to touch
you through and through
You’re all mine, and I’m all yours,
love
I won’t let you down, so slowly take me
I’ll make you
feel like you just went above
All I want is to have you and go so
slowly
12
DON'T
COME YET
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from XXX (Ticket to Hell) [Special
Edition])
Wrap
me up in your arms
And explore my body slowly
Let your energy
burn quietly
With gentle kisses and quiet moans
Don’t
come yet
I know you’d like to orgasm with me
But don’t come
yet; this needs to last
Oh, momma and papa
Don’t come yet.
I’m not home alone
Don’t leave the party yet. I’m too
happy
Boyfriend, my baby faced darling
Don’t come yet,
because I’m cheating on you
Don’t you babies come yet; this
needs to last
Touch me, touch me where I am hottest
Kiss
me, kiss and lick at everything on me
With eyes closed, follow my
hormones to peace
Don’t you rush; I can feel your body wanting
to
We’ve been waiting too long for too long
Oh lover of the
night with muscles of strength
And eyes of steely blue, and skin
so soft
Don’t come yet
I don’t want to live without
enjoying this
Don’t come yet until you hear my sigh
Sister
off at work, don’t come yet
Because I can’t risk being
caught
Don’t come yet, my beautiful boyfriend
Because I want
to keep cheating on you
Don’t come yet; this needs to keep
going
Don’t come yet, and don’t come just once
Don’t
come yet. I know you want to
But close your eyes and keep going
13
FIERCE
(SWING EDIT)
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from Gay Enough)
One
day I know it will come
A day when I will find close minded
some
If I’m gay enough I’ll be fierce enough
To be the best
lover possible
And live our life’s carnival
I’ll be fierce
and strong throughout life
And damn any difficult strife
I’ll
be fierce enough to know what is good
And what is bad and could
cause blood
We'll be fierce human beings
We'll be funky which
will be fun!
We’ll be fresh!
Fierce; only slightly vain.
14
THE
OTHER WOMAN
(sung
by Rose Thent – taken from The Vampire's Tits)
You
took the vows, the children, and responsibilities
My only function
in life is going with you to charities
The only thing I mean to
you is a dispenser of sperm
Now she’s entered this world and
I’ll make her squirm
You love me as long as I keep my head down
and quiet
However, you love her more for being on a stricter
diet
Barely make an attempt to keep it secret that you do it
Sleep
in her bed, wake up in mine, but now end this shit
I am more
than ready to hold the pillow over your nose
I won’t hesitate to
feed your dirty children to the crows
And when it comes to that
stupid bitch don’t even ask
I will do what might come from
drinking from this flask
I will no longer be the slave of a man
who feels so smug
I will no longer be a slave to the idea that I’m
some bug
Grow up prissy to find myself a husband, and then
fuck
Split my vagina to spit out his children into life’s
muck
The other woman must suffer everything that I have
Like
me she should feel in her heart some form of stab
I’ll be more
than happy to bring a knife to her neck
I’ll be more than happy
to make her organs a wreck
I was more than happy to bring the
knife to her neck
I was more than happy to turn our home into a
wreck
If you leave me for her I’ll cover her grave in acid
And
then I’ll rip out your brains to finally feel placid
The
other woman was in my house, and I had to do it
The other woman
went in my bathroom to take a shit
The other woman befriended my
children and husband
The other woman threatened to take my jewels
and land
The other woman left me no choice, I had to kill them
Not
only did I kill her and my dirty cheating husband
I threw my own
two children into a fifteen foot ditch
Then I cut into her body to
drink the blood of that bitch
The other woman came and took my
life from me
With the other woman here I simply could not be
So
I jumped into her open corpse and splashed inside
I laughed and
danced on my husband who lay beside
I twirled like a schoolgirl
with my hanging children
Clinging to their bodies and laughing
like and then
They police came after a call to do with lots of
screams
Now I sit in a white room. Like a big cloud in my dreams
15
BEST
WE FORGET
(sung
by Reovice Citizens – taken from The Demon's Tits)
Oh
my God, may that never happen to my child
Hopefully the man on my
street doesn’t go wild
The run down half way house across the
street scares
To even go to that side of the street, nobody
dares
And did you hear of the girl’s body that was found?
I
told you that night I had heard a strange sound
The news is saying
a new war is breaking out
The country is polluted with corruption
and doubt
Did you hear that the kid across the street did
drugs?
Did you hear he was kidnapped as a child by thugs?
Did
you hear about the little boy that was raped?
Did you hear about
the girl whose eyes got scrapped?
Don’t speak of it, best we
forget, best we move on
Forget about it. Those poor people are
dead and gone
Don’t acknowledge it, that doesn’t happen to
us
All you do by thinking is cause yourself more stress
Pretend
that there is no suffering. There really isn’t
We all know that
all the bad guys are in prison
Don’t you worry about any of
those matters it’s rare
Best we forget and of sentiment we strip
ourselves bare
My friend died last week after ten years with
leukemia!
All I have known since then is paranoia and insomnia
My
relative contracted aids from somebody so close to him
His fate is
now sealed and everything I know has gone grim
The world is
flooding over and millions are drowning now
A celebrity was
murdered and will never again take a bow
The pope was declared a
homosexual and there is no snow
The Earth is falling apart from
inside as the sun does grow
Scientists across the world proved
that there is no God
The White House was bombed and I met a firing
squad
Priests across the country are being accused of rape
They
hung themselves when they discovered no escape
What is there
to do after such events? How we will go on?
Best we forget, and
live as if they had never been gone
Pretend that there is no
cancer, and that there is no death
All it does is make you think
and then go short of breathe
Best we forget. Best we ignore.
Best we hide from fear
Best we cover our eyes. Best we pretend we
can’t hear
Best we go on with our lives. Best that we leave
misery
Best we forget, and allow it to fade into our history
Let
the little children grow weak and go hungry and thin
Let the ozone
layers keep rotting away from within
Best we forget, and for
ignoring the pain we’ll feel no regret
Just close your eyes and
fall asleep, it’s so easy to forge
16
WHERE
ARE THE HOT HETEROSEUXALS? (Reprise)
(sung
by David & Darrel – taken from Drag Queen)
I
have seen them running around the city
It’s the woman loving man
I find so pretty.
They have cute face and bodies of angels too.
I look at them, and find only one thing to do
I smile so shyly
at them like a silly little boy
They look at me and there’s a
strange curiosity!
Where are the hot heterosexuals of the
planet!
One better show up before I make a wild racket!
Where
are the players of my favorite sport?
I miss looking at some boy
without his support!
Where have all the heterosexual boys
gone?
Did they all gain weight instead of building brawn?
Where
are the hot heterosexuals? The hot boys!
The ones who crave women,
and are my eye’s toys
Did they all become bi-curios on my
watch?
Or am I what they are trying to dodge?
Are they hiding
from me? I truly hope so
Because if not my eyes have nowhere to
go!
17
I'M
SO GAY
(sung
by Bart & Kore Matheson – taken from Dream, Chase, Love)
I’m
so romantic it makes me sick to my stomach
Looking at myself in
the mirror I go green
Then when I look back at you I go red
See,
what I’m talking about?
When I’m around you
I become so
sweet
I’m so gay
It’s sick
18
BECAUSE
HE LEFT
(sung
by Bart Matheson – taken from The Witch's Tits)
Wind,
stop blowing through the grass of his grave!
I’m only an
innocent child who became his slave
Sun. stop burning him for he
is in the clouds!
Oh, how I want him and not these crowds
Oh,
how I do wish I weren’t crying here
I want you here to take away
my fear
Perhaps I should slash at my wrist
For being with you I
can’t resist
Grind a wrist on a gravestone
So I’ll break
any veins sewn
All because he left I’ll go
Join him at least
a soul
Because he left I’ll let myself bleed completely
out
Because I said I’d go die for you with any doubt
So, with
you dead I should just spill my blood
So, I’ll be back with you
and everything good
Now he’s gone I’ll slip away from life to
him
So I’ll be able to kiss his neck which is slim
It is
because he left that I won’t live more
See paramedics took him
out of the door
They never brought him back to me
So I can no
longer silently let it be
Because he just left I’ll not live
I
die too, the court will forgive
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